What dream do you remember most vividly? What message do you think it bears?

The dream I most remember is when my lover came to me on my screened-in porch. The message it bears is loneliness and longing.


Why don't you listen to what the universe or your mind or your body or your god whispers ever more closely to you?

I do listen but execution of the message is another matter.


If you could, what gift that is impossible for you to give would you offer and to whom? Why this specific gift to this specific person or persons?

I would give my lover freedom because his freedom would free me too.


Describe a person you love. How would you know them without their face?

I would know him by his hands and his voice and his smell. His face is a small matter when compared to his energy.


How did you first know you were in love and what makes you unsure of it?

I knew I was in love with him when, regardless of the consequences, I still want him. My uncertainly comes when time passes between our moments together. I look for answers and confirmation everywhere but it is never forthcoming.


What besides love do you doubt and what makes you doubt it?

I doubt the bigger picture. I doubt we are here for larger purposes but rather simply have risen above the food chain. Life is so cruel and unfair and dirty. If we are all part of one another, then why don't we know it and why don't we act like it?


In what way have you betrayed or disappointed yourself or others? In what way have you been betrayed or disappointed?

A person who was supposed to love me sank into a deep deep depression. Years later, when he finally surfaced, he expected things to be the way they were. They were not. I am disappointed in myself that I cannot find love for him.


What are the parameters of your small world? How do you decide where to draw the line, where to focus your energies, what to give your attention and time to? What, if anything, do you do to enlarge it? If nothing, why not?

I have small children. All my energies go to them them either directly or indirectly.  I will get back to pieces of my own life soon.


Why aren't you more involved in trying to better the world of others?

Part of my job is keeping people from making bad decisions. I talk them out of something if it is bad for them even if it means less money for me. When more of my time becomes my own, I will give bigger.



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