What dream do you remember most vividly and what message does it bear?

The Russians were invading US. Some beach near Savannah. Our home had underground tunnels & we were escaping but somehow I lost my mom. I didn't want to keep going. I went above ground to find her & instead saw my brother get shot.

Message – My brother was in the Marines when the US invaded Iraq & I was afraid. He got shipped over but came home safe.


Why don't you listen to what the universe or your mind or or your body or your god whispers ever more closely to you?


Tells me to stop feeling guilty about everything & to stop taking on so much.


If you could, what gift that is impossible for you to give would you offer and to whom? Why this specific gift to this specific person or persons?

I would like to give my sister-in-law therapy. Or acupuncture. Or both. She needs it because she thinks she's perfect but it's all pretend, and it hurts to think how much energy she spends denying her sadness & discomfort. And I want to listen to her and not hear her complain, not even once. Oh, that would be glorious.


Describe a person you love. How would you know them without their face?

I would know him by the things he collects – he's mesmerized & enchanted by the world & has created a "cabinet of curiousity" which he adds to regularly. His sensitivity is that of a romantic, a poet, a hobo. Also, he has really soft hands.


How did you first know you were in love and what makes you unsure of it?

I never really "knew". I think it just happened and hasn't stopped. I'm still sure of it so don't want to think about that.


What besides love do you doubt and what makes you doubt it?

I doubt the existence of god. I definitely DON'T doubt love. (it may be one thing I really believe) I doubt that life without meaningful experience is a life well-lived, but who am I to say? I doubt that life is even  intentional sometimes. I doubt myself.


In what ways have you betrayed or disappointed yourself or others? In what way have you been betrayed or disappointed?

I am always late. When I was young I was addicted to sex in a self-destructive sense. I am not entirely responsible, even as an adult. I ignore my student loans.

I've trusted people who were lying to me. That sucked. Sucks.


What are the parameters of your small world? How do you decide where to draw the line, where to focus your energies, what to give your attention and time to? What, if anything, do you do to enlarge it? If nothing, why not?

I am more & more invested in the local, in the community, & in my family but I have very "big world" ideas. I like to focus my energies on my relationships & the people I love, but send as much care and sensitivity as I can toward my understanding of the greater world.


Why aren't you more involved in trying to better the world of others?

This is the opposite of what I'm involved in. I live for creating goodness & peace & experience. I hate this question. But that's because I'm not realistic & my utopic view of the world is that we are all doing our best with what we've got.



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